My eyes my soul.

You must hear this all the time but i feel as if i must say it “Eyes are the gateway to the soul”. I hope that is my own original version and not someones. There is a world beyond our understanding that stares at us everyday, in the eyes of those we love. Its heard in their hearts sung through their souls. What words do is unite us, bring us closer. We are those with which love can sing to us without saying a word without lifting a note. My world my desires my pleasures lie inside, deep down buried below all the pain and suffering. I want those around me to see me for who i am and not who i was. Deep down inside us all is a young child, someone innocent, full of life. I am that child. I am that soul that sings these words without speaking. I want that special someone to see beyond the scars of time. The love that is buried deep within.

My world_

Welcome to my world.
Faceless. Deathless.
A world of nothing.

Some people have no idea what life truly is. They live day to day just walking through it. But then there are some who see the true beauty. Im not talking about an artist or a photographer. I speak of the people who truly appreciate life. they see the snow as freedom, they welcome the rain on their faces. Granted most of them will be in and out of this world, but when it is their time to feel freedom sweep across their faces they will truly appreciate it.

We take all this for granted, our lives are a bore, we dwell in our own shit. Freedom to these people is getting in a car and driving to Starbucks, now that is Freedom.

Their are a few forms of beauty in this world. Most surrounds us daily but we are to ignorant.

The odd couple meeting for the first time. A teen hangout, because they are still under age. A tired man sleeping in the corner. Then there is me, the wannabe human writing down his fears and exposures in this close-knit desperation. Laptops flowing around like a rancid smell. This is not life nor is it freedom. We live to die. Again their are those few who see past all the fallacies that are this world. They are Alive.

Wounded Heart

Wounded Heart

I want to open all the doors of your wounded heart
I want to deliver you from all that plagues you
I want to believer that all this pain is just a mask

Laying my head down next to yours
I can feel your heart beat, your love move
I care not where you have been but where you are now

So do me this favor
Just one favor
Open up to me and let me in
Open you eyes to the wonder of this world

I want to open all the doors of your heart
I want to bleed out all the negative thoughts
I want to believe that all the pain is just that a mask

Placing my hand on your wounded heart
I can feel your soul scream, your body wants more
I wish this was as easy as it may seem, but this world has a bigger plan for you and me

So sing me that sweet tune
Just one song
Let your heart speak to mine, as your lips do so fine
Open your arms and let me in

Fruits of my Labor

(Apple)
As i take my first bite
deep into the core
i see the reasons
drip in front of me
Sweet and sour
Happy and sad
This world is just that
a playful green delight
I smile and move on

( Banana )
Next up on this day
Is a sweet reality
Yellow with envy
Green with sorrow
It touches my lips
Silky and smooth
But full of distaste
Scared i drop the peel
May you slip and fall, fall, fall

( Honeydew )
My outside says no way
but inward i scream yes
Rough as i appear
It takes a knife to know
the truth about me
May you come weapon drawn
to cut these walls of mine
to devour the truth.

The Beauty Within.

There are things
buried deep inside
that show me
the real beauty
the person you
hide from

So open those eyes
my dear
for the dreams
of tomorrow
await you
as they do me

Tell me your
truths
tell me your
fears
Tell me your
demons

For i am here
to listen
to love
to care
for you
no matter
what you have become
no matter
what you believe

Let go of those demons
and let in the
truth that love
is at you fingertips
a person who cares
a person who wants
nothing but the best
for such a person
he adores

Let lose the Beauty within
for it does no good
buried deep down
Let lose your heart
to let in the love.

It bleeds me dry

Tearing from
the inside
out
it bleeds me dry
it tears at my soul
I wish it no more
but here i am
crying
desperate
for this feeling
to leave me be

It bleeds me dry
this pain
so sharp
like a dagger
straight to my heart

I cannot tell you
how i know it
but i do
this GUILT
of mine
its kills
It takes from me
from you
from us
from love
from reason
from all
that you and i
hold dear

This GUILT
of mine
it bleeds me dry

To my dear friend
SueEllen

No More

I cannot concentrate
Something
something
something is taking over my mind
Not letting me think
not letting me speak
not letting me be

But this something
this hold of mine
is something i wish not to think of
or at least
im not supposed to be
i dont wanna be

So i scream
I tell myself
No more
no more
I tell myself
Im lost
I want to be LOST

I drink it down
bit by bit
i swallow hard
No longer will
I plague myself with it
No longer

After all that
is what
Problems
are for
Sweeping them
under the
rug
the floor
the house
So no more
will i have to think
about these things that plague me
NO MORE

Two of Them

Two of them

They meet for the first time
the night long
but this night
will be longer

They can’t keep there hands
off one another
first the shirts
then the shorts
then the panties

They both stare
at one another
this is a dream
this is a dream come true

With one push
she flops to the bed
falling over herself
naked
ready
willing
able

Her friend dives in
face first
not looking back
this is a dream
her lips
grace hers
up and down
Juices flowing
hair in nots

The sweat
begins to pour
trickling down her
chest
to her thighs

This is a night
they wont ever forget

New Mirror

_New Mirror_
Broken
Smashed
My fist covered in Blood
I lied
I cheated
I stole
My soul sucked inward
Miserable
Stuck
Painful
There is no more looking back

I destroyed more then a mirror
I destroyed a self image
I destroyed a loving family

No longer Broken
No longer Smashed
My fist stitched up with love
I cannot lie
I cannot cheat
I cannot steal
My soul a blossoming Flower
Happy
Moving
Healed

I no loner look back but forward

I replaced that mirror
I healed my inner most emotions
I gave trust to new people, loving people

Now I hang that Mirror High
I am reborn

This pain my life ( True insanity )

This pain my life ( True insanity )
It never seems to end
As if its always with me
these words I feel
are nothing but the truth
So here i lay
A naked man
gifted with this word
Addiction

It’s brought me up
It’s brought me down
But still
I cannot stop
going
around &
around &
around.
So here I sit
with this pain so
deep.
It kills me slowly
But father then
my body
This pain I feel
So real.
Like a kangaroo pouch
Leaning heavy on
me
my
life
a
pouch
of pain
So here I Lay
A naked man
Freed from that word
Addiction.